Jessica&Nathan

A touch of depression

2011-09-14T23:55:00.000-07:00

I feel a certain comfort in posting on this blog because it's out in the open yet no one will read it. I guess it's kind of a false sense of security I feel while typing this out.

I am depressed. I have been for a long time. It feels good to just admit it. I always have to be the strong one. I am always fighting my own emotions to help others deal with their own.

I am so alone these days. I only have my husband and daughter. I have no friends. I have family but we aren't close anymore. I feel so isolated.

It seems like I try to reach out to people and I try to make plans to get together but everyone always bails. I feel so desperate to spend time with someone besides my husband and daughter. Don't get me wrong - I love them both to death but I need some ME time. Some GIRL time. I don't have that. I never did.

Even in high school I was alone. I would make plans to go to the movies with 'friends' and everyone would bail. They wouldn't call or anything. I would just show up to the movie and be by myself. There is nothing more depressing than that.

Now it's people that don't return phone calls, emails or texts. People that have their own lives and friends and no longer have time to even say hello to me.

I have been through so much in the last year. I have had to deal with my daughter getting sick and being diagnosed with an autoimmune disease that could be potentially fatal. I have had the excitement of getting pregnant only to lose all four of my hopeful babies. I have missed tons of work to be with my daughter during her seven hospitalizations. I have had to defend myself against family - when I needed support I only received hate and felt punished for things I had not done or that were not my fault. I was attacked from every angle of my life. I fought with my husband. I thought I would get a divorce because we hated each other so much through the process of these terrible things we experienced. I have never had a more difficult time to deal ... and yet I had to deal alone. I am still dealing alone.

Nathan never wants to talk about the miscarriages. He says it is over and done and nothing can change that. He doesn't understand the impact that each little lost life has had on my life. He doesn't understand the inner tourmoil I face each day while dealing with the losses of those children and while dealing with Allissondra's illness. Not a single day goes by that I am not hating myself.

I hate my job. I hate busting my ass for people who could really care less about me and the money I need to survive. Working as a server really makes you realize how rude and inconsiderate people really are. They don't care that you have six other tables that need your attention. They only want you to get what they need and what they want. They don't realize that there undercooked or overcooked steak is not your fault. If the cooks fuck up the food then I suffer because of it. No one understand the bullshit that servers have to deal with every day they work. "Hi my name is ... " interupts with "I'd like a water" ... awesome thanks for letting me introduce myself asshole! I really hate my job. Every single day I walk into that place I consider just walking right back out. I love some of the people I work with but there is no comrodery in that place. I can have ten tables and be running my ass off trying to get drinks and refills and biscuits while my food is sitting in the hot window waiting to be pulled and other servers are just sitting around talking. No one even thinks about helping someone else. I shouldn't have to ask someone to help me when they can definitely see that I need it. I go out of my way to help the people I work with. I get nothing in return. Hell they aren't even friends of mine. Half the time they don't listen to a word I say. I can be in the middle of a sentence and they would start talking to someone else like I'm not even there.

I know this is just a bunch of complaining and bullshit but it feels good to get it out. Well actually it doesn't feel good. I feel like shit more now than before.

Another thing that really pisses me off is when people get food stamps or some other bullshit. I couldn't even get a medical card for pregnancy and I've worked every day of my life - yet some druggie can waltz into that place and get anything they want. That goes for people that claim bankruptcy too. Nathan and I were literally under the gutter with debt. We were so far beyond what we could manage that we were urged to claim bankruptcy ... hell we probably could have claimed it ten times - that's how far behind we were. Yet we fought our way out of it. We have fought tooth and nail to get our debts taken care of. We were paying out more every week than we actually made. But we're doing it. We have taken our debt down so much and have come so far in just the last year! We only have another 2-3 years before our debt is paid completely. So it can be done... all those losers out there just give up. We have fought and paid our dues.

Allissondra Elizabeth Waldron - Birth to half a year old

2010-04-12T18:47:00.000-07:00

Birth 10-08-09

1 month - November

2 months - December

3 months - January

4 months - February

5 months - March

6 months - April

Allissondra is 6 months old!!!

2010-04-12T18:18:00.000-07:00

6 Months! Already? The time really has flown by!

Allissondra never really rolled over ...She has been sitting almost by herself (with us close by) for about a month and a half now but she sits completely unsupported now :-)

She never did want to hold her own bottle. Around 5 months old we started giving her a sippy cup once a day or every other day. Yesterday (4-11-10) she held the sippy cup all by herself!! We are so proud!

Alli has also started using her blow up ducky bath tub. She sits in it all by herself and loves trying to catch the bubbles! She also loves her rubber ducky bath toys! :-)

Allissondra's Spring Pics

2010-03-16T17:26:00.000-07:00

Allissondra's Professional Pictures

2009-12-13T15:27:00.000-08:00

The first time we tried getting Allissondra's newborn photos done she wasn't very cooperative. But this is what we got.

<3 I love my hubby <3

2009-12-13T15:18:00.000-08:00

So Nathan went to Kays and bought me this gorgeous diamond and black diamond ring. I love it! <3 It's my early Christmas present from him.

Growing so Fast

2009-11-13T19:13:00.000-08:00

Allissondra is growing so fast! She is already a month old! It seems like yesterday I was in the hospital waiting on her arrival.

She has been smiling since she was a day old. She has so many facial expressions since birth too. But she just recently started laughing and goo-gaw-ing. It is so cute! She is also pretty good about keeping her head up by herself. We are so proud of her!

She had a pediatrician appointment on Tuesday November 10th and she weighed 8lbs 13oz and was 21inches long. She is in the 50th percentile of babies her age.

We are seeing her grow and change so much everyday! It is amazing!

The Life of a New Mommy

2009-10-30T15:17:00.000-07:00

Having Allissondra is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Closely followed by meeting and marrying Nathan, of course. Being pregnant with her was amazing all in itself, but actually having her to hold and love forever is truely a miracle!

Everyone says your lives change durastically when you have a baby, but ours didn't. We still are able to enjoy the things we did before Alli was born. We can still go out to movies and stuff but we choose not to because we love to just be with our families and with our baby. The only thing that really changed was our sleep schedule, and that hasn't changed too much. We tried very hard to prepare ourselves for the birth of our baby girl and by doing so we were prepared when she came. We had everything we needed and had everything together and ready. We waited so long for her to get here, and we were so happy when she finally arrived!

I can hardly remember life without the loves of my life: Nathan and Allissondra. I don't know where I would be if I didn't have them. True, Allissondra wasn't planned for Nathan and I, but it is something that we will never regret and have never regretted. She is the best thing to us and we love her so much! We can't wait to watch her grow and learn!

I would say the only downfall to being a young parent is that people act like we don't know what we are doing. They talk down to us and don't listen when we tell them specific things about our baby. It is very frustrating and depressing when people look at you like you are doing everything wrong. I am her mother and I know what she wants, needs and likes. I spend every day and moment with my baby and I know what she is like. I hate that people think I don't know. Nathan gets it too. That people just think we don't know what is going on or what to do for our baby. But we are good parents and know what our baby wants, needs and likes. I just wish people would respect us and listen.

We are very excited to have our baby girl and can not wait to have another baby. Well we can wait...but we are excited for when we decide to have our next. We are hoping once Allissondra turns a year old that we can start trying for our next little one. But that is a while from now...so for now we are loving our first born and watching her grow and learn everything :-D

The BIG DAY

2009-10-17T14:27:00.000-07:00

Back in the room after the C-Section waiting on them to bring in Allissondra

Nathan in the room waiting on them to wheel me back in

Allissondra minutes after being born...already sucking her thumb =-)

Proud Momma and Pappa

Oh how she looks like Nathan!

Her first appearance into the world

Nathan looking nervous while we were waiting to be taken back for the C-Section

Me after being told I'd have a C-Section - scared but relieved

Nathan and I were scheduled to be induced at Ruby Memorial Hospital on October 8th 2009 at 8:00am. They started me on the cervix pill to soften and efface my cervix. That pill immediately started contractions for me. I had fairly strong contractions in the 100s within the first hour. Her heartrate was pretty strong at first, in the 1402 and 150s. It kept going down every once in a while but they would come in and turn me on my side and it would go back up right away. We weren't too worried about it. The first time her heartrate dropped really low was around 4pm or so. It dropped down into 60s and 70s. They immediately came in and gave me oxygen and turned me on my side. They had to break my water and do an internal monitor for the baby's heartrate. They also gave me a shot to stop my contractions so Allissondra could get a break from the constant contractions. Then around 7pm I got my epidural to calm down and relax so her heartrate would stay normal. Soon after that they came in to give me pitocin to get my labor moving a little faster. As soon as the pitocin went into the IV her heartrate dropped down below the 60s again. Once again a ton of nurses rush into the room and give me oxygen, turn me on all fours. Her heartrate would not go back up. The nurses checked me and saw I was still only a 4 1/2 cm dialated. They got really quiet and we knew that we would end up getting a C-Section. Then the doctor came in and told us that we would definitely have to get a C-Section for the health of the baby. Her heartrate just would not go back up and we were willing to do anything to get her out healthy. We were relieved to hear that we were getting the C-Section because then we didn't have to worry about something going wrong. So within minutes of her heartrate falling they came in and gave Nate his scrubs and had us sign the papers for consent. Then they wheeled me into the operating room to get started on my spinal tap. Nathan had to wait in the other room until they got things started. The scariest part of the whole thing was in the operating room while I was getting the spinal. They had me on my side holding a monitor on my belly to monitor her heartrate while they found a spot to insert the needle for the spinal. Her heartrate dropped all the way down into the 16s! I was so scared but had to remain calm as much as possible. I had oxygen and was just concentrating on breathing to keep calm to try to raise her heartrate. It was extremely scary because the doctors kept yelling to hurry with the spinal, that they had to get this baby out! It was so hard to hear all the things that were happening and remain calm at the same time. In what seemed like forever they had me turned back over and did their test cut to make sure I was numb. I just kept asking if Nathan was in the room yet. I wouldn't open my eyes because I didn't want to get scared or overwhelmed by what was going on around me. They had Nathan come into the room and he immediately grabbed my hand and asked if I was okay. I just said talk to me. Just talk to me. I'll be okay just talk to me. In what seemed seconds she was out. The first cry was the most amazing thing in the world. Tears immediately filled my eyes and I cried. Then the nurse came to see if Nathan wanted to come with Allissondra while they cleaned her and weighed her. He was so worried about me but I told him to go that I would be okay. Before I knew it he was back with tears in his eyes and our beautiful baby girl in his arms. She was sucking her thumb and just being adorable. It was amazing! They had Nate leave the room while they transfered me to the other bed to be wheeled back into our hospital room. Holding Allissondra was amazing the first time and every time since. Even though we were exhausted we were thrilled and wide awake.

The next couple days that we spent in the hospital are kind of a blur. I remember most of everything but what day things happened are mixed up. I remember falling asleep in the middle of conversations. The worst thing after the surgery was trying to get out of bed the first and second times to go to the bathroom. I could hardly stand to sit up in bed let alone try to stand and walk to the bathroom. I had to have nurses and Nate help me just to walk the couple feet to the bathroom.

It was a stressful time and crazy time but things are settling down now. Her sleep schedule and eating schedule are still getting worked on but they are starting to work out.

The worst thing out of this whole experience is breastfeeding! I hate it! I am still working with her and things are kind of getting better but far from right yet.

STILL Playing the Waiting Game!

2009-10-01T15:16:00.000-07:00

Nathan and I are still waiting on the arrival of our baby girl Allissondra. We have been hoping she would be here by now but she is being very stubborn!

We went in to the hospital today because we thought we were leaking amniotic fluid. I got checked and the test was negative. I also have not dialated any further (still around a 1). We were hoping to have her today or tomorrow but it doesn't look like it's going to happen any time soon. We go in for a doctor's apt tomorrow and will find out when we are to be induced. We are hoping sooner better than later.

We will try our best to keep everyone updated as best we can. Hopefully we will have good news soon.

Playing the Waiting Game

2009-09-20T16:18:00.001-07:00

Nate and I are so impatient to have our baby girl. Ami had Mia and Rachel had Macy. We're next =-D

I am 38 weeks. I'll be 39 weeks on Wednesday. I am dialated to about a one still and my cervix has softened. But besides that nothing has changed. My doctor is going to strip my membranes on the 24th to help things progress. Hopefully I go into labor that weekend.

Keep your fingers crossed that she comes soon. We are ready for her to be here!

I will try to keep you updated as much as possible! <3

Rest In Peace Dad

2009-09-03T08:39:00.000-07:00

Five Minutes
© Annmarie Campbell
I only had five minutes the day you passed away,I would have had time to tell you all the things I needed to say.I never got to tell you how much you mean to me,Or that you were the best dad, better than any man could be.The last time that I talked to youI wish I would have known.I would have said I love you,and kept you on the phone.If I only had five minutes, the morning you passed away,I'd give you one last hug so tight and see your great big smile.I'd tell you that I don't think I could live without you,not even for awhile.I'd kiss your cheek and take your hand and tell you it's okay to goAnd tell you that I'll miss you,more than you'll ever know.But you were gone so quickly,One last car ride you'd take.Before you even knew it, you were standing at heavens gate.Now God has called upon you,It's time to get your wings.To leave this life behind you,And enjoy all of heavens beautiful things.So wait for me in heaven Dad,Don't let me come alone.The day the angels come for me,Please be there to bring me home.

Counting Down - Getting Ready

2009-08-17T10:48:00.000-07:00

So the time for Allissondra to be welcomed into the world is drawing ever so close! We are down to 6 weeks! Nathan and I have been doing a lot in preparation for our first baby girl to arrive but we have oh so much more to do.

We have received gifts from family and friends, and we appreciate it all so much! But unfortunately there is much more we need. Thankfully we have the most important stuff... the carseat, crib, bedding, dresser, changing table, diapers, blankets, clothes, bath stuff, diaper bag, binkies, bottles, cremes, lotions, receiving blankets, etc but there is much more to get. Including: hair bows and bands, piggy bank(not necessary but something we'd like if we get the money) , medicine kit, first aid kit, breast pump, breast milk storage containers, bottle warmer, drying rack, baby bath tub, wash cloths, thermometer, healthcare kit, oral health care kit, diaper genie and refills, backseat car mirror, backseat carseat protector, baby music, orajel, teethers, toys, window shades, highchair, and baby bottoms (jeans). We checked the stores and prices for all the stuff we have yet to get and it totals well over $500! We are hoping we can get the stuff before she gets here but we don't know if we can for sure ...

Besides the stress of getting everything we need, things have been good! I was tested for pre-eclampsia but it's not been diagnosed yet. My doctor is keeping an eye on everything. He says he thinks I am in a mild case of it but not severe enough to worry just yet. So they are just watching it for now. I have had less back pain thankfully! but more headaches! I now have a pain killer prescription to help with the pain and headaches. That has helped a lot! I have some moderate swelling in my lower legs and feet and mild swelling in my hands and face. Nothing serious or that noticable yet. Let's just hope it stays that way =-D ... my doctor is having me go in to the cardiac unit to be put under observation and tests. He wants to make sure I don't have a heart problem, bc I get dizzy and almost pass out and my heart races beyond belief! so they are checking on that too. I don't go in for that apt until the 25th of August.

Nathan and I are very excited and impatient for Allissondra to be born! We talk about it all the time and try to be as prepared as we can. We started taking Birthing classes last Thursday and have one every Thursday until Sept 10th. They are helpful but most of it is stuff that I already know from my baby books, but its nice to be able to ask questions and talk with someone who isn't in a rush like the doctor's.

We will be getting our bedding this week hopefully and we can't wait to set it up in the crib to get the final look =-D. Everything is coming together and we just can't wait for her to be here! I started packing my bags and diaper bag for the hospital. I almost have them competely done but still have a couple items left to get and pack. I will hopefully be done with the bags soon and have them put in the car and ready to go by the first week of September. Just in case we deliver early for some reason. It's nice to know that I have it together and won't forget anything important.

33 1/2 weeks down .... 6 1/2 weeks to go =-D

We are due October 2nd but keep your fingers crossed for the week of September 21st! Nathan has that week off work and we really want to deliver during that week.

Baby Kicks

2009-05-31T08:57:00.000-07:00

I started feeling Allissondra kick when I was about 4 months pregnant. She has been quite active and I love it! Nathan has felt her move and give light kicks but Friday night he got to feel a whooper of a kick.

We were at the movies watching the Terminator Salvation. As always when I eat, Alli was kicking up a storm after every bite. I nudged Nate and he put his hand against my belly. Soon after she kicked his hand so hard that he was startled. He looked from the screen to my face with a look of pure surprise and excitement. I have been waiting to get that look. Everyone would say how their husband or significant other's face looked the first time he really felt the baby kick, and I wanted to see that look on Nathan's face so bad. I was so tickled when I finally got that look!

It makes me so much more excited now that I know he can really feel her move. I think it makes it more real for the both of us. We just can't wait to see her!

I have my second, and probably last, ultrasound scheduled for June 26th. I will be 26 weeks pregnant. I am really excited to see how much Alli has grown and changed. So next comes the ultrasound and then she'll be here before we know it.

We also found out at our last doctor's appointment that Allissondra has a 1 in 19990 chance of having down syndrome... which seem like good odds to me. It is such a relief to know that we don't have to worry about our baby's health. With those tests negative, we can breath easy for now =D

Over the next couple months we have a lot going on. We have BBQ's, parties, weddings, showers, reunions and so much more. We just hope we can make it all work.

Our Baby Girl

2009-05-08T20:45:00.000-07:00

Nathan and I have finally chosen a name for our beautiful baby girl.

We chose Allissondra Elizabeth! =D

We chose this name because it was something we finally agreed on lol. Also it meets our expectations of what we wanted a name to be. I have always loved long names for girls. I think Allissondra is very elegant and beautiful for her name. We chose Elizabeth after my mother. I always knew since I was young that I would give my first girl the middle name of my mother. =D We also liked Allissondra because we could give her the nickname Alli. A nickname was really important because we knew we wanted a long first name, so we had to consider the possibilities. With Allissondra we get the best of all worlds! We have the long, elegant name with the short gorgeous nickname =D

We love our name choice and she seems to love it too! Right after we decided on the name I said it to her and she started kicking around and moving a ton! So I took that as a good sign. =D

We can not wait for her to get here in late September or early October! We have been working on our baby registry at Target and are really excited for the shower and her arrival! We have everything picked out, it just depends on what people decide to buy us and what we have to get ourselves.

We are going to do the nursery in lime green with pink accents. That way we can hopefully reuse the bedding for our next baby, no matter the gender. We can reuse the pink and green for a girl or just the green for a boy =D See we like to think ahead lol

We'll keep you updated!

XoXo

Ready for Baby?

2009-04-24T22:36:00.000-07:00

I have come a long way since February 4th when I found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant. Now here I am at 17 weeks and ready to find out the sex of the baby. =D

Nathan and I have thought long and hard about names, our registry, parenting methods, baby showers, and what we thought the gender would be. But we know nothing can prepare us for the future, whether that future is 6 days away when we find out the gender or 5 months away when I give birth. What we do know is that we love this baby no matter what and that we are ready.

I have noticed throughout this pregnancy that some things aren't great, some things suck and other things are better than I thought. I love being pregnant but hate it at the same time. I hate being sick in the mornings. I hate being exhausted all the time. I hate not being to eat what I want or when I want. I hate not being able to sleep. I hate feeling out of control of my body and emotions. I hate not being able to work. I hate not being able to get out of bed. I hate the migraines! I hate the back pain. I hate that none of my clothes fit anymore. I hate the cravings. I hate the nausea. and I hate my extreme sense of smell! But I do love feeling the baby. I love picking out baby names. I love looking at baby clothes. I love my maturnity clothes. I love the thought of being a mom. I love feeling the baby kick. I love thinking about the boy or girl to come. I love the fact that Nathan is my husband and that he is the father of my child. I love the idea of having a baby.

It does seem that the hates out-do the loves, but sometimes thats how it is. Don't get me wrong... I do love being pregnant. I just hate the side effects! I want many kids, well as many as Nate will let me =D. I only had my mom and sister growing up and I never really had that sibling experience. I want a lot of kids bc I want them to have what I didn't have.

I am really excited to find out on April 30th what I am having. I feel so bad calling my baby IT lol but I can't call it anything else except baby. But soon that will change =D

I am also really excited for my baby shower! My mom and I are in the process of planning it. We have found a place to hold it (if we can book it) and we are working on the details now. I am hoping people will chip in with the food. I am inviting a lot of people and would like to have an actual meal. Like sloppy joes, potato salad, chips, cookies, veggies and fruit, and maybe some other stuff. But I really dont want just sandwiches but I'll do what I can. It just depends on money =D

Also Nathan and I have two boy names and two girl names picked out. Of course the names depend on the gender. We are thinking we will keep our top two names secret until the baby is born, and make our decision once we see the baby's face..but that is just an idea. We will probably decide which name we want before that. =D

We will keep everyone as informed as we can with the information we get.

XoXo

I'm pregnant! <3

2009-02-05T12:49:00.000-08:00

Nathan and I took a pregnancy test yesterday afternoon. We were unsure if it was going to be positive or negative and were trying to be as calm as possible while the test set. Nathan was so cute sitting on the couch watching the clock, waiting for three minutes to pass..and he jumped up so quick when the time was up. I got to read the test first and turned around with it in my hand and looked at Nate and started to cry. It was a mixed feeling of surprise, happiness and utter shock. We were both expecting it to be negative even though we had a feeling it would be positive.

The whole reason we took the test was because I was a week late for my period. I have never been more than two or three days late so it was a pretty big deal when I was late. That was when I went out and got the test just in case. As more days went by I got more and more nervous and finally told Nate that I wanted to take the test.

The poor baby looked like he was going to throw up when he saw the results. I didn't know whether to cry or smile or hug me or what. He was so cute! Of course we were both in a kind of shock but we knew it would be okay.

We know that we are blessed. We were not trying to have children for another couple of years and we look at this as our own little miracle. If it wasn't meant to happen then it wouldn't have happened. That is the way we are looking at it!

We are so excited and can not wait to get on with the pregnancy. We can't wait to do ultrasounds and hear the heartbeat. We can't wait until we find out the sex of the baby!

After taking the test and calling our parents we went to walmart to get the proper vitamins and some other stuff. We couldn't help but go in the baby section and look at the clothes and toys and strollers and cribs...already deciding which ones we want if its a boy and which ones we want if its a girl.

I think I am only a month or so along. But hopefully I can find out for sure when I meet with the doctor. I go tomorrow to get the proof of pregnancy and get the medical card and food stamps. Then I should be able to choose an actual doctor and start really getting into the whole preggo thing :-D

Nathan and I would love to recieve blessing and good wishes from everyone. We are nervous about miscarriage and have people praying for our first time pregnancy to go to term. We already love this baby and want it to live a long healthy life.

Nathan has already started rubbing my belly and kissing my belly. He is just so cute about the whole thing. You can tell he is excited and loving this. I am not even showing and he is already in love with my belly!! How funny is that!

Our Honeymoon

2009-01-30T18:50:00.000-08:00

I was looking back at my previous blogs and realized that I never posted anything about our honeymoon! So I decided better late than never.

Nathan and I had planned to get on a plan at 7:10am from Pittsburgh to Ft. Myers Florida. We waited for two hours and at 6:50 they told us our flight was cancelled. We were able to reschedule a flight for 6:20pm. We were stuck in PA for 14 hours! We called a cab and went to the mall. We walked around, shopped a little, went to a movie, and finally went back to the airport to wait. Thankgfully that flight was not cancelled.

We flew to Cincinnatti that night and stayed at a very nice hotel. We were able to eat, shower and rest before leaving that morning for Ft. Myers Florida.

Once in Ft. Myers we found that we were not able to rent a car because we did not have a credit card in Nathan's name and I was not 21. So we had to take a taxi down to Naples Florida.

We stayed at the LaPlaya Beach and Golf Resort in Naples, Florida. We had to take a taxi everywhere we went, which was very expensive.

Our honeymoon was not the picture perfect experience one might have thought it to be. Once there, Nathan and I both ended up sick, I started my period (on my honeymoon!!! AH) and it rained everyday but one, which was the one day we had scheduled our massages, therefore we could not enjoy the sun as much as we would have liked.

Nathan and I loved being in Florida despite all the bad things that had happened. We hope to go back to that Resort every couple years to celebrate our anniversary.

Here is a slide of some of our favorite pictures from our honeymoon.

Meet Zoe - our Doberman Pinscher

2009-01-30T18:03:00.000-08:00

This is Zoe our 13 week old Doberman Pinscher. Nathan and I got her on January 15th in Preston County when she was 11 weeks old. She has grown so much and we love her so very much. Everyone that has met her has fallen in love with her. She is the sweetest and most playful puppy you'd ever meet.

Zoe loves to play, bite and chew on everything ... especially feet (lol)... She loves sleeping on Nate's or my lap while we watch TV in the livingroom ... She has her very own 'couch' and blanket to chew and sleep on (although right now she is pinned in the kitchen at night because we are in the process of house-breaking her)... Zoe loves her ball and her rope. She also loves to play with empty water bottles.

When Zoe was born she was the smalled little doberman. She was the runt of 13 puppies. She also had a healed broken leg that makes her limp a little. We are taking her to the vet in two weeks to get her second check up and also get her leg looked at to make sure everything is okay with it. Wish us luck! :-D

Merry Christmas and Thank You All

2008-12-25T17:10:00.000-08:00

Some may say that Nathan and I went overboard with Christmas this year, but we don't think so. Each and every one of you deserved so much more! It all comes from the heart no matter what the price tag was. We hope that all of you enjoy your gifts and this wonderful holiday season!

Nathan and I had an amazing time Christmas Eve with our Waldron family. I adored baby Dylan and am sorry I stole him all night. I couldn't help it ;-D. Nathan and I very much enjoyed our gifts and spending time with everyone! We can't wait for next year!

Christmas Eve Night was interesting for us. We drove straight to my parents after we got done at the Waldron's house. It was fun spending time with my sister, her boyfriend and Mike until late into the night. But it was a very long night, sleeping on an air mattress in the dining room.

Christmas day was an early but fun adventure. We got up at 6am to open presents with the kids. They were so tired they weren't even excited at first, but that didn't last long. After opening gifts, my mom, sister and I made breakfast for the family. Then we played around and helped with lunch/dinner. Nathan helped my dad and Mike build all sorts of stuff with Timmy's K'nex, while the kids and I played racing games on their new Wii system.

Overall Nathan and I had a great Christmas. But not we are tired and must get some sleep before our long days at work tomorrow.

We want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. May all you get home safe and enjoy the holidays!

We love you!

<3

Our House - Hopefully

2008-12-18T16:43:00.000-08:00

The first house that Nathan and I looked at was wonderful in size but after a second look we "ran away without a second glance." It turns out that the house needed a lot more work than we first thought and it also had a lot of foundation problems. We were slightly disappointed but not discouraged.

We spent that evening looking up houses online and found one that we absolutely fell in love with. It did not appear in the pictures to need any work and came with a lot of land. It was also rather new - built in just 2004.

Right away Nathan and I made an appointment to go look at the home. We just saw it today and it was just like the pictures. We were in love lol. The owners were actually home when we saw it and they were able to give us more of a personal tour and insite into the home.

The house is a one level three bedroom two bathroom, with a family room, living room with a fire place, dining room, laundry room and spacious kitchen. My favorite part of the house is the master bedroom which has a large (HUGE) walk-in closet and also a huge bathroom with a garden tub, large vanity, and a large glass shower separate from the tub. It also has a large front deck and a smaller deck in back that needs replaced. It comes with two car off street parking and a 2.329 acre yard. There also is a koi pond (which we probably won't use) and lots of storage. The house is just under 2000 sq.ft.

The owners are currently thinking about taking it off the market for a little while because they are not sure when they will be moving, but they know it will be in the next couple of months. Which for Nathan and I is absolutely perfect because our lease for our apt isn't up for another 5 months. If we put down a small deposit of only a couple hundred bucks, the owners will "hold" the house and not put it back on the market until they are moving out. Then the actual contract will be drawn and the house will officially be ours. Now some people think this may be a bad idea, and I can see why some would think that. But we would be drawing up a contract and everything would be legal and there would be no backing out. If we found another place, we could get our earnest money back and the house would go back on the market. Also if they find out they can't move then we would get our earnest money back and go back to looking for a different place. For us this is a great thing because we know we love this house and don't want it to go to someone else. Also waiting a couple months to actually purchase it will give us time to save up more money and move out of our apt.

Also the owners would be throwing in a lot of furniture with the house if it is sold at full asking price of $107,000 which is a couple thousand UNDER our budget. Because they would be moving to another state and they had a lot of expensive heavy furniture they would be willing to leave it with the house if the full asking price was paid. That would include a huge TV with a gigantic entertainment center, a large fishtank, and a large workout home gym system. Also all appliances would stay with the home as well including washer/dryer, microwave, dishwasher, fridge and stove. With all those things included we would be set and wouldn't have to buy anything for the house. So for $107,000 we would be getting a lot more for our money than they would be getting out of it, but they just don't want to pay to have all that shipped over to another state. Which is awesome for us.

Below are pictures of the kitchen, living room and family room.

Wish us luck with getting the home :-D

Our First Tree

2008-12-18T16:37:00.000-08:00

Last Christmas Nathan and I were together we lived with his friend Jeremy and didn't have a 'real' Xmas tree. Jeremy had set up this little two foot thing so we had a little something.

This year I went out and bought a 6 ft pop up tree as a surprise for Nathan. My mom had given us a bunch of ornaments and I went out and bought some more and some lights. While Nathan was working I spend all day setting up the tree, decorating it, and putting the presents underneath it. He laughed when he came home and saw all the work I had done. He loved it. It is not the best tree for Christmas but hopefully when we have an actual house, and not a tiny apartment, then we can get a real tree.

Nate & I

2008-12-04T20:03:00.000-08:00

Nathan and I have been married now for 145 days. We love married life. We spend a lot of time watching movies and spending time with our families. We are some pretty goofy people. I love taking pictures of dumb stuff and thought I'd share some of Nate's and my moments... Enjoy ;-P

My Waldron Family

2008-12-04T20:01:00.000-08:00

In July I officially became a part of the crazy and wonderful Waldrons. I love every single person in my new family! They all have little things that sets them apart from the rest. You guys are wonderful and I love you!

My Family

2008-12-04T19:31:00.001-08:00

My family isn't necessarily about blood ties... It's about the love we have for each other. My sister and I are from my mom's first marriage. Timmy and Daniel are from my mom's second marriage. And Amber and Mike are two of the foster kids that my parents are in the process of adopting. But where we came from doesn't matter. We are brothers and sisters and Mom and Dad. We love each other and that is all that matters :-D. I wouldn't trade any of them!

Tomorrow Is the Day

2008-12-04T18:02:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow is when Nathan and I finally meet with the bank to see if we can afford the house we are currently looking at... we are so excited and nervous!!

The house we have found definitely needs a lot of work but Nate and I fell in love with it! It is so perfect for the two of us! It is a three bedroom two bathroom house with attached two car garage and 800 sq.ft deck! It comes on .24 acres and has an unfinished basement.

(if we get the house)

Nathan and I have big plans for the house. First thing we would do would be to completely redo the kitchen and sliding glass door to the deck. We would also be recarpeting the rooms. After a couple of years we hope to redo both the master and guest bathrooms. After we can afford a huge remodeling job, we want to fix up the basement and add two bedrooms, a work -out room, and an entertainment room down there.

We also want to fence-in the yard and fix the deck floor.

I know it sounds like a lot of work but Nathan and I are up for it. We know we have our families to help with some of the grunt work and also friends who would also be willing to help.

We absolutely love this house and really hope to get it! We have already painted the walls and fixed it up in our minds, and we hope to make it a reality!

It is done

2008-12-04T17:47:00.000-08:00

I am finally done with Christmas Shopping! *sighs* It was a lot of hard work but it was so much fun! I really hope all of you enjoy the season and your gifts!! It took a lot of time, effort and thought as to what to buy each special person for the holidays, but we did it :-D ... I am so glad to be done... Everything is wrapped, tagged and placed in bags with tons of tissue paper ;-P Bring on Christmas!!!!

Now I just need to clean up and put away the wrapping paper etc. and get out the tree and decorations :-D

Merry Christmas!!!

The Christmas List

2008-11-08T14:59:00.000-08:00

I know it's hard to buy for some people for Christmas. So I'm putting together a huge list of stuff that Nathan and I could use. Just in case you guys need some ideas :-D

Ideas for Jessica:
The Gunslinger (books 4-6) by Stephen King
Bath salts
Lotions
Earrings
Hair stuff (anything lol)
Picture Frames
Candles
Books ( author - Stephen King, Dean Koontz or Nora Roberts)
Anything Butterfly

Ideas for Nathan:
Weights (hand weights)
Protein powders
Lotions
Skyscraper/animal/bomb books
XBox 360 games (action or shooter type)
Beaters (A shirts)
Undershirts (fruit of the loom)
New work shoes (just tennis shoes)
New work pants (khaki-cargo pants)

Ideas for Both:
Book Case
Desk
Microwave (in red)
Bed Sheets/Sets
TV Stand
Wine glasses/glass cup sets
Movies
Clothes

Getting ready for Christmas

2008-11-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

Nathan and I are totally ready for Christmas. We have our lists all ready and are already buying gifts and wrapping them! lol I know I know some of you guys are thinking "man they are CRaZy!" but we're just a little ahead of schedule!

I love Christmas. I love the colors and the joy of the season. It is definitely my favorite holiday. The gifts help too lol.

I am so excited and can't wait to give people their gifts!!!

We are some goofy goobers :-D

2008-09-18T17:14:00.000-07:00

Nathan and I have been married for a while now. Some people wonder what married people do at our age. Well here is a preview :-P

42 Days :-D

2008-08-23T14:51:00.000-07:00

Nathan and I have been married now for 42 days. We still love each other so very much! We don't argue more or fight often. Nothing really changed between us except for the fact that we now are officially together and my last name changed. lol

I love being married to Nathan. People often tell us we're crazy for getting married so 'young' but we don't think so. I mean why date for six or seven years like some people and then get married. It is so much easier to just do it. It is actually a lot cheaper in many ways.

Nathan and I have big plans for the future. We hope to move into a house in the summer. We will be looking into neighborhoods and houses starting now :-D. We hope to get a two story house with a porch and a big yard and at least 3 bedrooms. Once we get settled into the house we hope to get PureBred Doberman Pinchers or PureBred Rottweilers. We want to get a man and a female so we can bred them :-D. At least these are our plans :-D. Things change but we hope this will happen for us :-D.

Nathan and I plan to have at least 5 children. Though we don't want to start having kids for another 5 or 6 years. We want to be able to enjoy each other and be settled into life before we have babies. We want our first baby to be a boy but we can't plan that LOL

Nathan and I are very much in love and can't wait to be out of school and let our lives really begin.

Nathan finally choose his major. His major is History and he's also going to get a minor in Communications. I am so proud of him! :-D :-D I still do not know what I am going to major in but hopefully I will figure it out by summertime.

Reception Photo Favs (3)

2008-07-24T20:17:00.001-07:00

Leaving the Reception

and again

And again
The Car
Trying to get my dress in the car
Leaving the Reception in style ;-)
Bride and her Bridesmaids (minus Amanda)
and again
Bridesmaid and Groomsmen and Bride&Groom
Mike and Lauren ... How Cute!

Mike & Lauren again
Nate & I
Nate & I again
Nate & I
Superman

Drink Break
My Baby :-D
Dance w/ me babe
I Love You
Kevin & Theresa Rose

Dancing the night away
I don't know what is going on in this picture :-)
Dancing w/ my baby Brother Timmy
Superman again

Reception Photo Favs (2)

2008-07-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

Peaches & Creme (Amber & Kris)

Amber & Kris
Timmy & I
Timmy & I
Amanda & Robby
Nate & Angela
Timmy & I
Mom & Dad
Mom Dad & Daniel
TD and his mom (Donna)

Nate & Donna

TD & I
Dirty
Timmy
Timmy
Eli & I

Chris & I
Dirty & I
Daniel & I
Grandpa Waldron & I
Angela & I

Kris & I
Timmy & I
Nate & Amber
Tara's mom and I
Garter Removal

Garter Removal

Garter Removal
Garter Removal
Garter Removal
Garter Toss
Bouquet Toss

...1

...2

...3
YaY Kathryn
Kathryn
Anniversary Dance

Grandpa & Grandma Waldron
YAY for the Anniversary Dance Winners

Reception Photo Favs (1)

2008-07-24T18:58:00.001-07:00

Ami & Chris

Richard & Kim
Mom & Timmy
Me & Dad
Me & Dad
Nate & His Mom
Nate & His Mom
Nate & I

Rachel & Jon
Andrew & Angela
Aaron & Eli
Amber & Amber
Mom&Dad and Nate&I

The Mom's cutting the cake
Nate & Mike
Nate & I
Nate & I
Timmy

Mom & Daniel
Nate & I and Amber
Nate & I
Daniel
Amber during the Toast

Andrew giving his toast as the Best Man
Amber giving her toast as the Maid Of Honor
Andrew & Amber drinking to the toasts
The Head Table
Nate & I making our Grand Entrance

Nate & I cutting the Cake
Nate & I nicely feeding each other cake
Nate & I feeding each other cake
Amber and Andrew giving toasts
Amanda & TD's entrance

Andrew & Amber's entrance
Kim & Richard's entrance
Mom & Dad's entrance w/ Daniel
Timmy & Amber
Guest Book Table

Hayden sleeping
Ben & Ami's entrance
Rachel & Jon's entrance
Mike & Lauren's entrance

Group Photo Favs

2008-07-24T18:34:00.000-07:00

The Waldron Family plus Keckley, Amrine and Jackson :-D

The Waldron Boys plus TD
The Bride and Her Bridesmaids
and agian
The Groom And His Groomsmen
Groomsmen and RingBearers & Bride and Groom
The Bride's Family
The Bride's Family again
The Groom's Family
Bride&Groom and my parents

Bridesmaids, Bride & Grooms, Groomsmen
Bridesmaids and Bride
Bridesmaids, FlowerGirls, Bride
Bride, FlowerGirls, RingBearers
Bride&Groom, RingBearers, FlowerGirls

Bride&Groom and RingBearers
Bride&Groom and FlowerGirls
Bride&Groom, Parents and Grandparents
Bride&Groom and his parents

Bride & Groom Photo Favs

2008-07-24T18:17:00.000-07:00

My Pre-Ceremony Photo Favs

2008-07-24T17:55:00.001-07:00

A Little Pre-Ceremony Stressing

Rachel all in pins
Amber getting Zipped

Hooking all those buttons :-D

Holding it all in

Let's Make this work

Getting the dress set-up

Amanda, Hayden & Nick Keckley Pre-Ceremony

Nathan before the Ceremony

Doesn't he look calm :-)

The Brothers Ben and Jon Being Normal :-D

My Dad and Brothers

The Boys Getting Ready

The Final Product

Eyeliner :-)

Lip Liner

Amber and I

My only Little Sister :-D

The Finishing Touches

Informals / Funnies

2008-07-24T17:49:00.001-07:00

Sexy Ladies

I think Andrew was proposing to Nathan :-)
I stick Nathan with the flower pin :-(

Ladies in jackets! Men with flowers :-D

And Again

Ladies and Gentlemen>?

We Tied The Knot

2008-07-24T16:46:00.000-07:00

Nathan Richard Waldron and Jessica Morgan Miller exchanged vows on the twelfth day of July two thousand and eight. Family and Friends were in attendance at the Suncrest United Methodist Church.

Family of the Bride

Family of the Groom

Sister of the Groom: Amanda Keckley

Other Family: Nick and Hayden Keckley, Chris and Eli Jackson, Daniel Amrine

Bridesmaids: Lauren Waldron, Rachel Amrine, Amanda Miller, Ami Jackson

Maid of Honor: Amber Rose

Groomsmen: Aaron Waldron, TD Darby, Ben Waldron, Mike McKinney, Jon Waldron

Best Man: Andrew Waldron

Parents of the Bride: Timothy and Mary Miller

Parents of the Groom: Richard and Kimberly Waldron

Grandparents of the Bride: Lucille Barr, Donald and MaryEllen Miller

Grandparents of the Groom: Leroy and Mary Atkins, Glen and Connie Waldron

Flower Girls: Kathryn Waldron, Angela Waldron and Amber McKinney

Ring Bearers: Timmy Miller and Daniel Miller

5 things

2008-07-22T18:26:00.000-07:00

1. 5 Things under $5 I couldn't live without:

1. ChapStick! cant go five minutes w/out it!

2. Razors

3. Lotion..I have really sensitive dry skin :-(

4. a good book

5. shampoo/condition...I am obsessed w/ it! I have about every scent! :-)

2. 5 Favorite movies:

1. Knocked Up

2. Dirty Dancing! Love it!

3. Anything w/ Vin Deisel

4. 300

5. Wall*E...well actually any pixar movie!

3. 5 Baby names I love:

1. Wyatt

2. Wayde

3. Christian

4. Alexandrea

5. Elizabeth

4. 5 songs I could listen to over and over:

1. Amazed - Lonestar

2. Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake

3. Pour Some Sugar on Me - Def Leppard

4. Anything by Hinder

5. Hungry Eyes - Eric Carmen

5. 5 people who have influenced me in a positive way:

1. My husband

2. My Mother/Father

3. Mrs. Wise/ Junior&Senior English teacher

4. Mrs. Monahan/ Special Topics

5. My little brother Timmy

(I have 6 ppl .... My Best Friend Amber too!)

6. 5 things that are always in my purse:

1. Pens/Pencils

2. ChapStick

3. Tissues

4. Perfume

5. Deodorant :-)

7. 5 Moments that changed my life forever

1. My sister moving to Alabama

2. Meeting Nathan

3. Death of a friend

4. Getting Married

5. the movie Pay It Forward

8. 5 obsessions I have now:

1. Pictures... doesnt matter who or what. I love looking at Pictures

2. Grill Cheese... dont know why but I love them!

3. Facebook :-D dork I know

4. Being w/ Nathan

5. Spending time w/ family

9. 5 places I would like to go:

1. Paris

2. Austrialia

3. Hawaii

4. Alaska

5. Carribean

10. 5 kichen appliances or tools that I couldn't live w/out:

1. Definitely the Dishwasher!!

2. Toaster .. I love bagels and toast! haha

3. My really nice sharp knives (yay Cutco)

4. Microwave

5. Bowls

11. 5 people who's top 5s I would like to see:

1. Amber

2. Ami

3. Rachel

4. Kim

5. Amanda